kaylynn, josiah + i went to the radon moon show at finnegans in flagler last night. it was lovely to see them play, + even better to see matt, i hadn't seen him in forever, so of course it was more than lovely. + we can't forget johnny. great music + great people = great times. [<3333]
[----] on the other hand, i have been extreamly lonely. i'm so sick of literally crying myself to sleep at night. i'm sick of not having someone to stay up late with, someone to have late night "i can't sleep" conversations with. i need someone to hold me, kiss me, talk to me. i want to fall in love + be loved back. i hate the way my body always aches for attention, not even sexual, just a random hug from behind... or a surprise kiss. i want something true, something real. i want a feeling so heartstopping, a crush so crazy i can barely speak with out wanting to pass out, that i can't even look at him without uncontrolably smiling from ear to ear. something where when i look at a possible future between us, i can see anything and everything that would work, could work, and i would be down for it.
i honestly just want someone, my someone for this time in my life. not nessacarily a "forever". but please, come on, at least a good period of time. i'm so sick of being ripped off in the love department. i'm just so sick and tired of being lonely. i mean i have amazing friends, but sometimes, i honestly need more than "just a friend".
emit fo doirep taerg a rof evah i dna, enoemos no eye ym evah <33
[p.s. new myspace pics.]